Second Rehearsal

This is what I wrote on the way home today. It was sent at 5:46 PM...

First, let me clarify something about yesterday's first rehearsal; it scared the hell outta me. I was unsure of what I was doing, if this show was really for me, etc. I was completely unnerved.

That being said, I am writing this from the bus on the way home from the second rehearsal.I have never had this much fun in my entire life. Ever! The entire experience was so emotionally freeing. I could feel my boundaries melting away with my insecurities. Mike, the director, was able to draw things out of me that I never knew were there. I was open and mostly uninhibited.
Then something miraculous happened- I relaxed. I laughed. I made friends and had a good time all in 1 rehearsal. I'm dreading the next 5 days because they're filled with boring work & not rehearsal. I finally feel alive on stage & not terrified.

I was funny. I made people laugh.

While this is all fine & dandy, it is also highly narcissistic. I acknowledge that. The work that I'm doing now has to be like that for a moment. This has to be about me loosening up, taking risks, & not caring about anything else.

This feels like a big acting class. I feel like a kid playing make believe again.

I'm remembering why I became an actor. And it's magical.

Sports? What?!

I just applied to be an ESPN NFL Draft Red Carpet Model.

Like all 5 feet of me stands a chance! Ha ha ha!

Other Things

Apologies for the formatting issues at the bottom of my last post. I tried to fix it, but it doesn't seem to want to be fixed...

Also, I submitted myself for other projects. They include and infomercial workout model and a fitness group participant for hip hop abs. I never heard back from either one, but one of these days it'll pan out.

Besides, I have no time to do any shoots until the end of May. I might take off a few days in early June to regroup and recharge the batteries.

We'll see...

Updates

I haven't posted here in a while because, to be honest, I was bummed. Here's the story...

I went to the StrawHat Audition kinda banking on at least 1 callback. I felt confident in my abilities and knew I looked good. However, after having what I thought was a good 90 second audition, not 1 theater called me back. Nobody. Everybody else in my group got at least 1 and I had nothing. It was not a good feeling.

So I went home and bummed around.

I also started thinking about the situation. I can get film and TV parts and I've been lucky enough to be on set for various things. Film seems to come naturally and it's a better fit for me. The director is more hands off and it's not so micromanaged. I like that.

So I decided to take a break from theater to focus on film and TV.

Then I got this casting in my mailbox:

SEX, RELATIONSHIPS,AND SOMETIMES...LOVE

GINGER

LeadFemale / 19 to 40 / Am-Indian, Asian, Caucasian, East Indian, East-In, East-Ind, Hispanic, Middle Eastern, Middle-East, MidEastern, Mixed, Multi-Ethnic, Native American, Pac_Islander, Pacific Islander, PacificIsland

Ginger is adorable, totally in love one minute and totally in hate the next , silly and fun


I can do that.

On a whim, I submitted myself for the role. I didn't expect to hear anything back, but I figured it was worth a go.

Imagine my surprise when they wanted to see me for an audition. I went in last Monday and read for them. The casting lady seemed very nice, but the theater seemed disorgainized. Oh well, no big deal.

They asked for a callback on the spot.

I went back in on Wednesday for this callback. They cast me on the spot.

Finally, I got cast in an Off-Off Broadway show!

My first rehearsal was yesterday and it went well. I feel like I stepped in it a bit with the guerilla-style they're going for. I like to know my lines and have some creative input. That's not gonna happen with this show. However, it seems like it'll be a rather interesting experience and I'm willing to give it a go. Plus, it'll look great on my resume.

Even though there's no pay and I very well may get fired from my full-time retail gig, I feel very lucky to have this show. It gave me a gigantic confidence boost. It told me 'you know what? You ARE castable and not this ridiculous little creature that will never get a show.' It's hopefully the beginning of the end of my retail gig.

In other updates, I wasn't seen at all for Sophistry. However, I got the book and it's something new for me to work on.

The meeting with Barbizon went amazing. They really liked me and want to take me on as a shoe model. Yay for small feet and pedicures!

The meeting with the casting agency went well too. They gave me a Nokia commercial to read and gave me direction to play with. It was fun. They liked me as well, so kudos to me for having a great day!

I also saw Billy Elliot on Broadway. It was amazing! Go see it!

Today brings rehearsal from 2-5. We'll see where this goes...